About 6 months ago, I had a moment of panic. Not just a passing moment, but a few months where everyday I felt pangs of guilt, anger and sadness. I was so jealous of all my brothers' and sisters' having children that I couldn't see straight.
When Aaron and I got married we decided well before hand that we would wait 7 to 10 years before having children. We were only 19 and 20 respectively and no where near ready to bring a child into the world. That's not to say that we thought it would be the end of the world if it happened sooner, we just planned to wait.
6 months ago, I found out my younger sister was pregnant and I'm ashamed to say that the first thing I thought was 'I should be first.' I tried to rationalize my anger and jealousy. I tried to factor in that I had been married nearly 3 years at the time, and still hadn't gotten pregnant because we weren't financially ready and that my husband and I were 'doing it the right way.' I was mad at her for taking something from me. What, I wasn't exactly sure. I just knew that it was my right and she had stolen it.
My husband and I lay in the bed that night and I sobbed while he held me. I cried deep, wracking tears. I let every insecurity and dream fall into his arms that night and I told him I wanted a child. He looked me in the eyes and said. "Then go off birth control and we will start trying before we turn the spare room into a guest room." He was being so logical that I took a step back and decided that this baby fever would pass and we would just wait it out.
For months everytime I saw a baby I felt a clench in my stomach and hormones nearly took over. However I stuck by our original decision, and endured through my jealousy and anger. For almost 3 months I was sad and angry because I have always wanted children but I knew it wasn't the right time. I have prayed and prayed and God has continued to tell me to ''Wait'
I thought I might never get over my anger and feelings of loss, but I have. It's taken a while and everyday I have to pray and remind myself that God has a plan, and that thought I don't understand it, I need to trust in him. I also look at the lives we lead, and realize how fortunate we are to be able to do all of the things we do. With a child there is no way we could pick up and drive the 7 hours to Portland to see a concert. We need to remember the blessing we are given in this time alone together and use it to strengthen our relationship before there is a child in the equation.
Today I am thankful, I know it is hard to be thankful in everything, but I am trying.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
We checked into the Jupiter Hotel and put our stuff into our room. It was small but very cute and the bed was super comfortable. I think part of Aaron’s biggest excitement was that we would be able to eat at Chipotle while we were in town and so we got the GPS out of the car (which was in an underground garage) and typed in Chipotle. We walked the near mile in cold and somewhat dreary conditions, however we made it there and enjoyed a head sized burrito each. We began the walk home and wouldn’t luck have it that it began drizzling when we got about 3 blocks away.
As we made our way into the garage to get some things from the car I spotted the van with the trailer attached and I noticed Marty standing there with his back to me talking on his phone. I was a little wet, and looking somewhat bedraggled from driving 7 hours so I made my way to the car to get the plates of cookies and brownies I had made for the guys. Jared had specifically asked for brownies at one concert and so I was bringing some to give them at the show.
As I am pulling them out of the car Uncle Larry and Jared walked out of the lounges back entrance to help with the unloading. I about died. Jared was looking far too adorable in his suit and tie with his Mohawk looking perfect. Uncle was looking very uncle like in a purple suit and shades. I walked over to them and looked at Uncle. He looked at me and said. “Can I help you?” I am sure I was standing there with my mouth hanging open or something.
“Um….actually these are for you.” I handed him the plates with cookies and brownies and his face lit up. He smiled at me and said “aww, well thanks for that,” and he reached over to hug me. I leaned in but realized that I was wet a little too late and ended up giving him a sort of half hug. As I pulled back Jared looked over at me and said. “Thanks.” I was so shocked that I kind of mumbled and walked away.
We made our way back upstairs where I proceeded to text all of the girls that I was going to be meeting at the concert. We chatted back and forth and I started to get ready. Long story short a couple of hours later I was dressed and ready and we were hanging out at the bar until we were ready to stand in line outside. We got outside and we had a blast while waiting in line. I met some wonderful ladies who I had chatted with online, but never met in person and we laughed and joked about different things.
As we made our way down into the area where the concert was going to be, we were excited to get spots right in front of the stage. I was standing right against the stage and had an amazing view. After the starting band (the patterns) played a few songs the guys came out to set up their gear. Jackson began setting up the keyboard and I said to him. “I’m the one who brought the brownies.”
He leaned forward and looked me in the eye and said, “Well thanks darlin.” Then he reached over and shook my hand. I couldn’t believe it. I was so excited the whole concert. They were about 1000 percent better in concert than their CD. I have loved their music since I first heard it and in concert they are that much better!
As the concert progressed between songs Jared was standing in front of me and I jokingly asked. “How were the brownies?” I honestly wasn’t expecting an answer so I was surprised to have him lean down and respond.
“They were awesome! I ate way too many.” Color me floored! I was just so happy to be there listening to some of my favorite band that I couldn’t believe I was able to actually talk to these guys. I got to shake Jared’s hand at the end of the concert and also got his autograph on the back of my ticket. It was truly a night to remember.
That is how the concert went. Totally amazing. Way better than I ever could have expected and definitely worth the drive.
As we made our way into the garage to get some things from the car I spotted the van with the trailer attached and I noticed Marty standing there with his back to me talking on his phone. I was a little wet, and looking somewhat bedraggled from driving 7 hours so I made my way to the car to get the plates of cookies and brownies I had made for the guys. Jared had specifically asked for brownies at one concert and so I was bringing some to give them at the show.
As I am pulling them out of the car Uncle Larry and Jared walked out of the lounges back entrance to help with the unloading. I about died. Jared was looking far too adorable in his suit and tie with his Mohawk looking perfect. Uncle was looking very uncle like in a purple suit and shades. I walked over to them and looked at Uncle. He looked at me and said. “Can I help you?” I am sure I was standing there with my mouth hanging open or something.
“Um….actually these are for you.” I handed him the plates with cookies and brownies and his face lit up. He smiled at me and said “aww, well thanks for that,” and he reached over to hug me. I leaned in but realized that I was wet a little too late and ended up giving him a sort of half hug. As I pulled back Jared looked over at me and said. “Thanks.” I was so shocked that I kind of mumbled and walked away.
We made our way back upstairs where I proceeded to text all of the girls that I was going to be meeting at the concert. We chatted back and forth and I started to get ready. Long story short a couple of hours later I was dressed and ready and we were hanging out at the bar until we were ready to stand in line outside. We got outside and we had a blast while waiting in line. I met some wonderful ladies who I had chatted with online, but never met in person and we laughed and joked about different things.
As we made our way down into the area where the concert was going to be, we were excited to get spots right in front of the stage. I was standing right against the stage and had an amazing view. After the starting band (the patterns) played a few songs the guys came out to set up their gear. Jackson began setting up the keyboard and I said to him. “I’m the one who brought the brownies.”
He leaned forward and looked me in the eye and said, “Well thanks darlin.” Then he reached over and shook my hand. I couldn’t believe it. I was so excited the whole concert. They were about 1000 percent better in concert than their CD. I have loved their music since I first heard it and in concert they are that much better!
As the concert progressed between songs Jared was standing in front of me and I jokingly asked. “How were the brownies?” I honestly wasn’t expecting an answer so I was surprised to have him lean down and respond.
“They were awesome! I ate way too many.” Color me floored! I was just so happy to be there listening to some of my favorite band that I couldn’t believe I was able to actually talk to these guys. I got to shake Jared’s hand at the end of the concert and also got his autograph on the back of my ticket. It was truly a night to remember.
That is how the concert went. Totally amazing. Way better than I ever could have expected and definitely worth the drive.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Thinking thoughts too big for me.
The concert was amazing, but I will write more on that later. I promise.
Last night as I lay in bed trying to sleep I began to think. I imagine this is the hardest part of the day for some people. Where you are so tired that your body just wants to pass out but your mind is turning over a thousand tiny things, like rocks in a tumbler. My brain is always trying to polish new ideas or reuse some old ones.
Lately I have been evaluating life. I think it may be the new year, or possibly the fact that I turn contemplative every so often. Something I read yesterday has been pinging around inside my head since we left portland yesterday. This is paraphrased from the book "Whiter than snow" it is a devotional by Dr. Paul David Tripp. My mom got it for me for Christmas, and I was finally able to sit down and read the first few pages.
"Our lives are not one big decision after another. We don't swing from life changing event to life changing event. Our live is the sum of the thousands of small decisions we make each day."
Profound, right? It got me thinking about my priorities in life. What did I want my life to have been about once it was over? Do I want people to remember me? Am I okay with just being a decent person, and leading an average life? Do I want to aim higher and have a larger margain for error?
These were the thoughts swimming through my head last night which had me wondering why I blog at all? Am I really doing that great a job at chronicling our lives here in the northwest? No, I suppose I'm not. I think I do it as a way to make sense of the thoughts I have. I do it to help keep sane. I do it to try to fulfill my want to be famous...I know you aren't supposed to admit those things, but there you have it.
I wanted to be an actress in High school. I didn't persue that career, and the more I see people my age doing things I wish I could have done the more introspective I become. I love my life. I am content each day with what I have and who I am with. My husband is the most amazing husband out there. He sometimes drives me batty, but he is the love of my life. Does that mean I can't have dreams and desires to do more? No, I don't think it does. I've been thinking more and more about what I will do when he leaves in September for another year unaccompanied. Last time I moved back home and lived with my family. That isn't really an option this time for a multitude of reasons.
I'll write more later.
Last night as I lay in bed trying to sleep I began to think. I imagine this is the hardest part of the day for some people. Where you are so tired that your body just wants to pass out but your mind is turning over a thousand tiny things, like rocks in a tumbler. My brain is always trying to polish new ideas or reuse some old ones.
Lately I have been evaluating life. I think it may be the new year, or possibly the fact that I turn contemplative every so often. Something I read yesterday has been pinging around inside my head since we left portland yesterday. This is paraphrased from the book "Whiter than snow" it is a devotional by Dr. Paul David Tripp. My mom got it for me for Christmas, and I was finally able to sit down and read the first few pages.
"Our lives are not one big decision after another. We don't swing from life changing event to life changing event. Our live is the sum of the thousands of small decisions we make each day."
Profound, right? It got me thinking about my priorities in life. What did I want my life to have been about once it was over? Do I want people to remember me? Am I okay with just being a decent person, and leading an average life? Do I want to aim higher and have a larger margain for error?
These were the thoughts swimming through my head last night which had me wondering why I blog at all? Am I really doing that great a job at chronicling our lives here in the northwest? No, I suppose I'm not. I think I do it as a way to make sense of the thoughts I have. I do it to help keep sane. I do it to try to fulfill my want to be famous...I know you aren't supposed to admit those things, but there you have it.
I wanted to be an actress in High school. I didn't persue that career, and the more I see people my age doing things I wish I could have done the more introspective I become. I love my life. I am content each day with what I have and who I am with. My husband is the most amazing husband out there. He sometimes drives me batty, but he is the love of my life. Does that mean I can't have dreams and desires to do more? No, I don't think it does. I've been thinking more and more about what I will do when he leaves in September for another year unaccompanied. Last time I moved back home and lived with my family. That isn't really an option this time for a multitude of reasons.
I'll write more later.
Monday, January 18, 2010
One more day!
In less than 24 hours I will be on the road to portland. To say that I'm excited would be the understatement of the year. I would say that for at least four months I have wanted to see the monkeys in concert. I waited patiently for them to announce when they would be coming to Boise. However after announcing Salt Lake City, Utah; Somewhere in Canada, Seattle, Washington and Portland Oregon...I have to ask; did they forget Idaho? We are right there in the middle of all of those places so I can only guess that they forgot about us or possibly will be coming back through later this year.
For that reason I am super excited about the oppourtunity to drive to Portland and see the monkey in concert. I must admit however that reading about the venue I am slightly scared that the guys have picked a place that feels it is too good to serve people who care less about appearance and more about awesome music. The doug fir lounge has some reviews which make me think that it is trying too hard to be "cool" and "hip" and that is something I don't get down with. When I get back from Portland I will do a total review and post my personal experience and opinion.
PS: The guys over at the doug fir lounge are not paying me to do this. I simply want to tell you about my experience in Portland.
For that reason I am super excited about the oppourtunity to drive to Portland and see the monkey in concert. I must admit however that reading about the venue I am slightly scared that the guys have picked a place that feels it is too good to serve people who care less about appearance and more about awesome music. The doug fir lounge has some reviews which make me think that it is trying too hard to be "cool" and "hip" and that is something I don't get down with. When I get back from Portland I will do a total review and post my personal experience and opinion.
PS: The guys over at the doug fir lounge are not paying me to do this. I simply want to tell you about my experience in Portland.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Should I feel bad?
I am slightly obsessed with my newest favorite band. I have both of their albumns and various singles downloaded on my Ipod, and I have a hard copy of the most recent albumn. When they announced a 100 city tour this year I danced around the living room for 30 minutes before realizing they hadn't announced which cities they would be touring....
Then two weeks later I find that they are indeed coming to Boise, ID a mere hour from our little town, and I about died right then and there. However they release dates only a few weeks in advance (If we're lucky) and they are only doing one date in idaho, if I have to work tough luck I won't be able to go. Well a couple of weeks ago they announced a date in Portland oregon... for january 19th. I jokingly told my husband, if I end up having the 19th and 20th off together I'm going to portland.
Yesterday I found out That next week I am working every day except the 19th and 20th....I called the husband in aa frenzy...."Can I go? I can't believe I got those two days off, it can't be a coincidence...it just can't be! I was meant to go see them next week"
I called while at the commisary and he was like "Yeah you can go, we'll talk when you get home...Don't have a heartattack"
I got home and he was like "Buy the ticket. You should go, You've been dying to go for months now, it's only a 7 and a half hour drive. I won't be able to get off work though, not this close out."
I was crestfallen, I had wanted to see them in concert for months, he was right about that. I didn't really want to go without him, but I knew he was right about not being able to get the time off so soon. "You won't have the car, how will you get to work."
"I'll get a ride, buy the ticket."
"But, but, Are you sure?" I pleaded not wanting him to be mad.
I am going to see 100 monkeys in Concert in less than a week and a half and I am so excited about it I might pop! I still cannot believe that I'm going on my first mini-road trip to see a band, and yet, I'll be doing it by myself. I think I'm okay with that. I'm 23, I can take a 2 day trip and not die just because I'm by myself. Any kind words? Any stories of trips you've made to see a band you love?
Then two weeks later I find that they are indeed coming to Boise, ID a mere hour from our little town, and I about died right then and there. However they release dates only a few weeks in advance (If we're lucky) and they are only doing one date in idaho, if I have to work tough luck I won't be able to go. Well a couple of weeks ago they announced a date in Portland oregon... for january 19th. I jokingly told my husband, if I end up having the 19th and 20th off together I'm going to portland.
Yesterday I found out That next week I am working every day except the 19th and 20th....I called the husband in aa frenzy...."Can I go? I can't believe I got those two days off, it can't be a coincidence...it just can't be! I was meant to go see them next week"
I called while at the commisary and he was like "Yeah you can go, we'll talk when you get home...Don't have a heartattack"
I got home and he was like "Buy the ticket. You should go, You've been dying to go for months now, it's only a 7 and a half hour drive. I won't be able to get off work though, not this close out."
I was crestfallen, I had wanted to see them in concert for months, he was right about that. I didn't really want to go without him, but I knew he was right about not being able to get the time off so soon. "You won't have the car, how will you get to work."
"I'll get a ride, buy the ticket."
"But, but, Are you sure?" I pleaded not wanting him to be mad.
I am going to see 100 monkeys in Concert in less than a week and a half and I am so excited about it I might pop! I still cannot believe that I'm going on my first mini-road trip to see a band, and yet, I'll be doing it by myself. I think I'm okay with that. I'm 23, I can take a 2 day trip and not die just because I'm by myself. Any kind words? Any stories of trips you've made to see a band you love?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Wow, I never thought I would be able to do that.
I had over 60 blogs on my feed. That meant a lot of posts to wade through each day. I was reading every single post from every single blog, but it always left me drained and without anytime for anything else to get done.
I am proud to say that I went through and pared that list. I am sorry that I had to cut that list in half. However I feel so much lighter, and more relaxed than I have in months. I am no longer reading blogs that don't inspire me. I am not reading blogs that are just daily whinings. I am not going to have picture a day posts clogging up my reader.
That's another thing...You can only take so many pictures of yourself before it starts to get old... am I right? I mean I get it if your husband is deployed and you want to take a picture of your child everyday so that he can see how much they have grown. I even get it if you want to just take a random picture everyday, surroundings, children, you on occasion, but taking a oicture of yourself and posting it everyday, what's the point of that?
My pictures would all be similar. I look the same almost everyday. I go to work or I stay around the house cleaning and stuff, not too much fun there. Okay enough endless chatter. This was just to let everyone know that I will now be leaving comments instead of rushing through your blog going "okay okay, get to the point"
I am proud to say that I went through and pared that list. I am sorry that I had to cut that list in half. However I feel so much lighter, and more relaxed than I have in months. I am no longer reading blogs that don't inspire me. I am not reading blogs that are just daily whinings. I am not going to have picture a day posts clogging up my reader.
That's another thing...You can only take so many pictures of yourself before it starts to get old... am I right? I mean I get it if your husband is deployed and you want to take a picture of your child everyday so that he can see how much they have grown. I even get it if you want to just take a random picture everyday, surroundings, children, you on occasion, but taking a oicture of yourself and posting it everyday, what's the point of that?
My pictures would all be similar. I look the same almost everyday. I go to work or I stay around the house cleaning and stuff, not too much fun there. Okay enough endless chatter. This was just to let everyone know that I will now be leaving comments instead of rushing through your blog going "okay okay, get to the point"
Monday, January 4, 2010
On waking up late, and staying in all day.
Today was a lazy day. I woke up late. The house was warm, if a bit messy. The cat has been stretched out in one position or another all day long, and I've spent most of the day reading some of my favorite blogs, and checking emails.
I am making a wonderful dinner tonight, prepackaged pasta, and some veggies. It doesn't sound like much, but it will taste awesome. I love me some bertoli.
I love watching food shows. I don't think I have the time or patience to make some of those fantastic creations that I see, but I sure love watching and salivating over them.
I need to do laundry, but that can wait. Sometimes having a day to do nothing is exactly what you need. If Aaron gets home at some point we might make it to the gym today. Believe it or not he is on day shift, even though it's 5 o clock and he still isn't home.
I am making a wonderful dinner tonight, prepackaged pasta, and some veggies. It doesn't sound like much, but it will taste awesome. I love me some bertoli.
I love watching food shows. I don't think I have the time or patience to make some of those fantastic creations that I see, but I sure love watching and salivating over them.
I need to do laundry, but that can wait. Sometimes having a day to do nothing is exactly what you need. If Aaron gets home at some point we might make it to the gym today. Believe it or not he is on day shift, even though it's 5 o clock and he still isn't home.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Forgive me...I haven't forgotten about you.
It's not that I haven't been writing per say. It's just that right now I'm in the middle of writing a story so with work, house work, bills and everything else, something had to slide to the back burner for a bit. Did I mention that it is very cold here in Idaho? We get about an inch of snow every single week. I'm being serious. When you get an inch every week it starts to get old, I'd like to get eight inches all at once, because then we could make a snowman, and do all of those other cool snow things.
As it is, tough luck trying to make frosty out of an inch of yucky mush.
The holidays came and went around here, we had a fantastic Christmas, and my Husband got me some awesome gifts.
I got some Dansko clogs for work.
paraffin hand bath
lots of puzzles
jeans
pajamas
a sweat suit
julie and julia
harry potter and the half blood prince
and some other treats and things.
As it is, tough luck trying to make frosty out of an inch of yucky mush.
The holidays came and went around here, we had a fantastic Christmas, and my Husband got me some awesome gifts.
I got some Dansko clogs for work.
paraffin hand bath
lots of puzzles
jeans
pajamas
a sweat suit
julie and julia
harry potter and the half blood prince
and some other treats and things.
Here is a photo of us at the wing Christmas party all dolled up.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
A meme...but a good one.
This is a lazy snow day post. I am stealing this music based meme from Avitable. The rules are really simple: turn on your Ipod or other music player, put it on shufle and then fill out the stages of your life press next and fill out the next stage. Name the song, the artist and the album name if you have it.
Waking Up: Drunken Waltz, 100 monkeys, Monster De Lux
First Day at School: No Air, Jordin Sparks FT. Chris Brown
Falling In Love: Under Pressure, David Bowie/Queen, Best of Bowie
Fight Song: Hot as Ice, Britney Spears, Blackout
Breaking Up: Walk It Out Remix, Dj Unk/Andre 3000
Prom: If you could only see, Tonic
Life: Hit Me With Your Best Shot, Pat Benetar, Best Shots
Mental Breakdown: Bodybag, Hit the Lights, This is a stick up...Don't move
Driving: Galang, M.I.A., Arular
Flashback: Fly, Sugar Ray, The best of Sugar Ray
Wedding: May it be, Enya, Fellowship of the Ring OST
Birth of Child: Let it Rock, Kevin Rudolf/Lil Wayne
Final Battle: It's still rock and roll to me, Billy Joel, The essential Billy Joel
Death Scene: Chariot, Gavin Degraw, Chariot
Funeral Song: Gunpowder and Lead, Miranda Lambert, Crazy ex Girlfriend
End Credit: Oh!, Eric Hutchinson, Sounds like this
I couldn't have made these up if I tried, and I think it shows how diverese my Ipod happens to be.
Waking Up: Drunken Waltz, 100 monkeys, Monster De Lux
First Day at School: No Air, Jordin Sparks FT. Chris Brown
Falling In Love: Under Pressure, David Bowie/Queen, Best of Bowie
Fight Song: Hot as Ice, Britney Spears, Blackout
Breaking Up: Walk It Out Remix, Dj Unk/Andre 3000
Prom: If you could only see, Tonic
Life: Hit Me With Your Best Shot, Pat Benetar, Best Shots
Mental Breakdown: Bodybag, Hit the Lights, This is a stick up...Don't move
Driving: Galang, M.I.A., Arular
Flashback: Fly, Sugar Ray, The best of Sugar Ray
Wedding: May it be, Enya, Fellowship of the Ring OST
Birth of Child: Let it Rock, Kevin Rudolf/Lil Wayne
Final Battle: It's still rock and roll to me, Billy Joel, The essential Billy Joel
Death Scene: Chariot, Gavin Degraw, Chariot
Funeral Song: Gunpowder and Lead, Miranda Lambert, Crazy ex Girlfriend
End Credit: Oh!, Eric Hutchinson, Sounds like this
I couldn't have made these up if I tried, and I think it shows how diverese my Ipod happens to be.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Oh Christmas Tree, Oh Christmas Tree
So it took me almost an hour to get all these pictures loaded. By that time I needed to leave for work, and well time seems to be going missing. I swear it was just last week we were eating turkey and now we are only days away from Christmas. That being said our house has been decorated for weeks, but we had a week of snow that kept me from taking pictures and posting...snow makes me very lazy for some reason. I mean you just want to wrap up in your favorite blanket and lay on the couch watching cheesy Lifetime and Hallmark Christmas movies.
Speaking of cheesy Christmas movies...tell me I'm not alone in that. I think that one of my absolute favorite guilty pleasures is: filling up the DVR with Lifetime movies and then spending a day watching and fast-forwarding while reading blogs and cathing up. I know most of them are totally predictible and nothing but cliches...but I don't care. No one can tell me that it isn't a blast to watch the shenanigans that ensue when a child missing a parent decides it't time to find a new mom...okay enoughabout that rant. It's time for me to get dressed and ready for work.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Dear so- and so
Dear USAF,
Thank you for all of the things you have given us as a young married couple, Like 3 moves in 3 years. Healthcare that we wouldn't be able to afford otherwise. A place to live, and electricity. Friends from all over the world, and all the other wonderful things. On the other side of that; Why? Why are you sending Aaron to Korea Again? Why are you giving us a year together a year apart a year together and another year apart? I feel like I'm being punished for being so darn happy these past few months. Secondly, this time moving back home isn't really an option since there will be so many new little babies around. That means we won't be able to save a bunch of money this time and will probably actually lose money. Thanks...Thanks a lot.
Hating you, Chelsie
Dear Mom,
I am so sorry to hear about your recent fall and the stitches you had to recieve, I'm praying for a quick and easy recovery. I love you!
Love, Your favorite Daughter
Dear Work,
Thanks for providing a nice distraction, I really enjoy working and staying out of the house, you could not have come at a better time. I am also happy for the little bit of extra money, although right now it is going to a few small debts, I'll take any hours you have for me.
Content with my job, Chelsie
Dear Non-existent friends,
Hi there, In case you had forgotten I'm still around, just not as much as I used to be. I know that you have other things going on and I understand that sometimes the holidays make it hard to be around, but I wish you would call or text me just to let me know you still care. I know most of you are just happy that it isn't your husband going to Korea, and I get that, I just wish you would be a bit more there for me.
A little lonely, Me
Thank you for all of the things you have given us as a young married couple, Like 3 moves in 3 years. Healthcare that we wouldn't be able to afford otherwise. A place to live, and electricity. Friends from all over the world, and all the other wonderful things. On the other side of that; Why? Why are you sending Aaron to Korea Again? Why are you giving us a year together a year apart a year together and another year apart? I feel like I'm being punished for being so darn happy these past few months. Secondly, this time moving back home isn't really an option since there will be so many new little babies around. That means we won't be able to save a bunch of money this time and will probably actually lose money. Thanks...Thanks a lot.
Hating you, Chelsie
Dear Mom,
I am so sorry to hear about your recent fall and the stitches you had to recieve, I'm praying for a quick and easy recovery. I love you!
Love, Your favorite Daughter
Dear Work,
Thanks for providing a nice distraction, I really enjoy working and staying out of the house, you could not have come at a better time. I am also happy for the little bit of extra money, although right now it is going to a few small debts, I'll take any hours you have for me.
Content with my job, Chelsie
Dear Non-existent friends,
Hi there, In case you had forgotten I'm still around, just not as much as I used to be. I know that you have other things going on and I understand that sometimes the holidays make it hard to be around, but I wish you would call or text me just to let me know you still care. I know most of you are just happy that it isn't your husband going to Korea, and I get that, I just wish you would be a bit more there for me.
A little lonely, Me
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Work Christmas Party Tonight
Tonight is the AAFES Christmas party, and I'm pretty excited. I really like the people I work with and I'm looking forward to talking to them outside of work. I was really worried when I first started working that I wouldn't "fit in" since it had been so long sine I had been around other adults all day (I spent the last two and a half years working with children). I've been really surprised by how nice everyone is, and how well we get along. I am someone who comes to work to work, so I do my best to stay out of any kind of drama, although here it seems like everyone has a similar mentality. I haven't witnessed any tantrums, or trying to get out of doing your own work.
I am hoping tonight is as much fun as I expect it will be. I will be posting pictures later.
I am hoping tonight is as much fun as I expect it will be. I will be posting pictures later.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Thanksgiving really did happen...
Here is the photographic proof that Thanksgiving really happened and it was awesome! The turkey turned out amazing, it was super tender and moist, and everyone was raving about it. I also made deviled eggs, green bean casserole, and two different sweet potatoe casseroles, one with a pecan crunch topping and one with the traditional mini-marshmallows. Dinner was served at 6:00 on the dot as evidenced by the photo below. It was epic to be together with friends.
Now that temperatures are starting to drop, the static in my hair is getting worse and I'm realizing that we aren't in North Carolina anymore. I never thought I would seriously miss humidity, however the crazy static is starting to drive me crazy...This southern girl is used to frizz and curls but constantly looking like a science experiment gone wrong is starting to get nerve wracking.
Anyone got any tips?
Now that temperatures are starting to drop, the static in my hair is getting worse and I'm realizing that we aren't in North Carolina anymore. I never thought I would seriously miss humidity, however the crazy static is starting to drive me crazy...This southern girl is used to frizz and curls but constantly looking like a science experiment gone wrong is starting to get nerve wracking.
Anyone got any tips?
My very first turkey, ever...It was quite yummy if I do say so myself.
Sweet potato crunch...basically a desert in and of itself.
The classic green bean casserole, yummy!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Oh, life isn't all work?
Wow! I had forgotten exactly how hard it is to be on your feet all day...I don't know how nurses and doctors do it. At the end of an eight and a half hour shift I just want to cut my legs off. Seriously though, the house is a wreck; I'm way behind in reading much less commenting on my favorite blogs, and writing hasn't been in the cards for too many reasons to count.
I don't want this blog to become nothing but a whine fest so I'm going to list some of the awesome things that have happened in past week or so.
I got all 9 of the books that I purchased with my Amazon gift card :)
The bad news is that haven't been able to even begin to read them :(
I also recieved my new foot soaking/massage bath :)
I haven't had the energy to heat the water up to actually use it yet :(
My husband and I got the house cleaned up in time for thanksgiving :)
The people and food left the house looking worse than before :(
All of the laundry is washed and dried :)
It is sitting in a mountain of unfolded crap on the bedroom floor :(
I have the cutest cat in the whole world :)
He sheds like nobody's business :(
All in all This week has had it's share of ups and downs, But I am thankful to have a wonderful husband, a wonderful house, plenty to eat, and a job. There are so many out there that wish their problems were as miniscule as mine, and I am looking ahead to having a better attitude ad thankful heart.
I don't want this blog to become nothing but a whine fest so I'm going to list some of the awesome things that have happened in past week or so.
I got all 9 of the books that I purchased with my Amazon gift card :)
The bad news is that haven't been able to even begin to read them :(
I also recieved my new foot soaking/massage bath :)
I haven't had the energy to heat the water up to actually use it yet :(
My husband and I got the house cleaned up in time for thanksgiving :)
The people and food left the house looking worse than before :(
All of the laundry is washed and dried :)
It is sitting in a mountain of unfolded crap on the bedroom floor :(
I have the cutest cat in the whole world :)
He sheds like nobody's business :(
All in all This week has had it's share of ups and downs, But I am thankful to have a wonderful husband, a wonderful house, plenty to eat, and a job. There are so many out there that wish their problems were as miniscule as mine, and I am looking ahead to having a better attitude ad thankful heart.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
...Oh thanks Aaron, Appreciate it!
So as I mentioned I started work on thursday...I've had four 8 and a half hour shifts since then...Yeah it's been great to get out of the house, but since we are a one car family that means I make the twenty minute walk to and from work adding close to an hour onto my day. Aarons work is closer to a 45 minute walk and putting me on a bike is seriously just asking for a broken ankle/knee/or whatever else. I love working, honestly I do. It gets me out of the house, gives us some extra cash, and in general helps keep me from being a bum. All that considered, my husband is kind of a slob. He isn't terrible of anything, I swear!
I am just the one who has always taken care of laundry, cooking, cleaning. Everything around the house has always been done by me, because I haven't had a job in two and a half years. I have arthritis in my knees and hips, and have a bad back which means that I am in pain at the end of my shift. After my walk home I am ready to fall into bed and pass out. The house has fallen by the wayside and my husband keeps telling me just to write down what needs to be done each day and we will split is up...are you joking? You don't even put your dishes in the sink, trash in the can and I can't remember the last time you took care of the cats liter without me begging you for 10 minutes.
Now, that's not saying my husband is gross or anything, and our bathrooms stay clean. No junk on the counters, no hair in the sink, he really is pretty good. I just don't understand someone who needs to be told how to "straighten up" It's not rocket science. If you use something put it back when your done. If you put a tea packet in your water...walk the 5 steps to the trash can instead of leaving it on the counter. Sometimes I wonder about that boy. Today I only have a 6 hour shift so I guess when I get home I will put the rock on as loud as I can and do a top to bottom clean before starting my cooking for tomorrow.
I am just the one who has always taken care of laundry, cooking, cleaning. Everything around the house has always been done by me, because I haven't had a job in two and a half years. I have arthritis in my knees and hips, and have a bad back which means that I am in pain at the end of my shift. After my walk home I am ready to fall into bed and pass out. The house has fallen by the wayside and my husband keeps telling me just to write down what needs to be done each day and we will split is up...are you joking? You don't even put your dishes in the sink, trash in the can and I can't remember the last time you took care of the cats liter without me begging you for 10 minutes.
Now, that's not saying my husband is gross or anything, and our bathrooms stay clean. No junk on the counters, no hair in the sink, he really is pretty good. I just don't understand someone who needs to be told how to "straighten up" It's not rocket science. If you use something put it back when your done. If you put a tea packet in your water...walk the 5 steps to the trash can instead of leaving it on the counter. Sometimes I wonder about that boy. Today I only have a 6 hour shift so I guess when I get home I will put the rock on as loud as I can and do a top to bottom clean before starting my cooking for tomorrow.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
So....I hurt the car today...
The day before my birthday and I went to do something nice for the hubby. (I was going to vacuum it out and clean the trash out) I went to the place on base and emptied all of the trash out of it, and it was pretty windy so I was only opening one door at a time. Then It was time to start vacuuming it out, so I get in the drivers side door to back up to be closer to the hose...and you guessed it left the door open. It ended up being bent back pretty far, so now we have $2,100 worth of damage to the car... Great! So I have to file a claim and pay a $500 deductible.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Saturday in Color
My Saturday went something like this:
2:47 Get woken up by Aaron who is coming home from work
2:52 Try to go back to sleep
3:11 Give up on falling back to sleep and hang out with Aaron until his 6:00 AM bed time
5:38 Aaron declares he is going to bed
5:46 The cat starts crying at the bedroom door This continues off and on for about 30 minutes
6:27 Put the cat into the laundry room/Watch recorded shows on the DVR
9:02 Take a shower/Get dressed/Brush hair and teeth
9:24 Start a batch of Gluten free Muddie Buddies for the ESC craft Bazaar
9:56 Arrive at craft Bazaar and spend two hours selling cookbooks and treats
12:00 Come home and lay down for a nap
3:37 Aaron comes in and asks "Are you going to get up" I reply with a five minute request.
3:38 I Throw myself out of bed after hearing the time...I have to get ready for my Birthday celebration!
3:50 I Text roxy to let her know I am awake and getting ready
4:17 I call tucanos to secure a reservation and it's 5:30 or 8:00 5:30 it is...
5:22 We arrive at Tucano's safely.
5:48 We are already eating the delicious offerings
6:53 We leave to go to Kohls where Aaron buys me 2 pairs of nice pants and 3 nice top sets
8:03 We decide to come back to Mountain Home to hit up some clubs
9:00 Go to Kurly's for the first round...Get bored
9:38 Walk to Mark Anthony's to smoke a hookah...awesome!
10:02 Go to Pick up Wendi and Mark
10:47 Arrive at Rodeo, the pool playing/dancing/drinking commences!
It was a fantastic birthday celebration and on Thursday I am going with Mirinda to The midnight release of New Moon! Pinch me because I am pretty sure I must be dreaming. This has been the best birthday since I got married 3 years ago. I think the hubby is finally getting the hang of it.
What I saw Saturday morning outside in the backyard.
At Tucanos' where we ate dinner. It was amazing and so yummy!
Before Leaving I asked one of the guys smoking outside to snap a picture of the four of us.
At Rodeo's Before I had a few drinks, Aaron gracioulsy offered to DD for me.
Mike wanted a picture with him being the "creepy" guy in the background throwing up the "shocker"
Me, Wendi and Roxy
Mike doing his best Michael Jackson in front of a fan
This is how the night ended with me and Wendi dancing on stage to "I'm on a Boat" with two random chicks... I plead the Fifth.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Did I mention???
That Wednesday the 18th is my birthday? That's right I will be 23 years old. It seems so weird, I was telling Aaron the other day how sometimes it feels like I'm still only 19 and newly married. As a sort of birthday thing we are going to Tucanos tonight for dinner. I am very excited about this because it's supposed to be a real treat. They carry around meat on huge platters/spits and carve it right there at the table. We have never been to one, but we are really excited about the experience. I will post pictures and tell all about it later.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Dear so and so, about the holidays
Dear Holidays,
This year I am back with my husband but I'm far far away from my family. Please stop trying to rush us. I love you and it's okay to take plenty of time. I am super excited about making a whole thanksgiving this year including a turkey. And then there will be a whole month devoted to Christmas, don't go rushing Christmas I love the baking of thanksgiving.
Love me
Dear Husband,
I am sorry that we are on opposite schedules right now, but I am very excited about getting a job. Please be supportive and help out around the house. I won't be here 24 hours a day now, and you will have to learn to put clothes in the bin, and put dishes in the washer, and trash in the can. This isn't rocket science I know your mom didn't follow you around throwing everything away for you and I won't be doing it anymore either.
Love your wonderful wife
Dear Creative Juices,
Thank you for flowing again, I am so excited to be writing again, I love feeling like I am finally doing what I was meant to do. Please don't stop. I will feed you chocolate, and give you a massage if you want me to, just don't desert me for so long again. It was hard feeling like I couldn't get past the road block in my mind.
Love the writer in me
Dear Back,
I hate you! That's right, if I never had to use you again it would be too soon. I am tired of the muscle spasms, the crunching and popping, and feeling in general like you are going to give out at any time. I am only 22 and this is completel unaccaptable. Do you understand me? Get into shape or I will be having them fuse you...I know you don't want that so please give me a break.
Love your owner
Dear Family,
I know you don't want to feel like you are crowding me, but you have my number. Please feel free to call me. Even if it is just to talk...I miss you guys.
Love your Sister, Daughter, Aunt, Grand daughter
This year I am back with my husband but I'm far far away from my family. Please stop trying to rush us. I love you and it's okay to take plenty of time. I am super excited about making a whole thanksgiving this year including a turkey. And then there will be a whole month devoted to Christmas, don't go rushing Christmas I love the baking of thanksgiving.
Love me
Dear Husband,
I am sorry that we are on opposite schedules right now, but I am very excited about getting a job. Please be supportive and help out around the house. I won't be here 24 hours a day now, and you will have to learn to put clothes in the bin, and put dishes in the washer, and trash in the can. This isn't rocket science I know your mom didn't follow you around throwing everything away for you and I won't be doing it anymore either.
Love your wonderful wife
Dear Creative Juices,
Thank you for flowing again, I am so excited to be writing again, I love feeling like I am finally doing what I was meant to do. Please don't stop. I will feed you chocolate, and give you a massage if you want me to, just don't desert me for so long again. It was hard feeling like I couldn't get past the road block in my mind.
Love the writer in me
Dear Back,
I hate you! That's right, if I never had to use you again it would be too soon. I am tired of the muscle spasms, the crunching and popping, and feeling in general like you are going to give out at any time. I am only 22 and this is completel unaccaptable. Do you understand me? Get into shape or I will be having them fuse you...I know you don't want that so please give me a break.
Love your owner
Dear Family,
I know you don't want to feel like you are crowding me, but you have my number. Please feel free to call me. Even if it is just to talk...I miss you guys.
Love your Sister, Daughter, Aunt, Grand daughter
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